i don't know what's with my sudden interest in gothic rock. guess i'll always have a thing for all things gothic eventhough i may not be as goth-crazy as i was back then. female opera-voiced singer with rock music in the background. absolutely beautiful..
oh ya. and someone described me as 'eccentric'. i've asked around and some people say it can either be a compliment or an insult. pfft! now am i supposed to be happy or angry? so next time, i would appreciate it if people would not use such big words to describe me. 'Nice' and 'Not Nice' would work just fine..
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almost wanted to write a very emo post today, but thought twice against it. in the past, if something was on my mind, i would just blog about it. who cares if i mentioned names or if the people i mentioned were hurt. who cares if what i said was one-sided or whether it was fully true. i sure didn't care. as long as i was feeling down, i made sure the world knew about it. and if someone made me angry, i made sure the world knew about them.
that was the kind of person i was.
but after the whole issue with her, one thing i've learnt is that you should never ever hang your dirty linens in public. if you've ever had an argument or fight with someone, cyberspace should never be the place to rant about it, especially not on your blog. i can honestly say, whenever i published such posts in the past, i really wanted the whole world to hate her as much as i did. i wanted to let the world know how horrible of a person she was.
but now i know, that my actions just showed how low i was willing to sink to. and that's just sad. how would i have felt if someone were to write horrible stuff about me which were only one-sided? or if after every argument with my friend, they would go back and write all the horrible stuff about me for the world to see? i would definitely not like that. already, if someone were to update their FB status on something bad about me, i would surely be pissed off, much less a whole blog entry.
to be honest, when it first ended, i hated her. i wished she had never come into my life. when it comes to love, most people usually trip and fall. but in my case, i was brought up to the heavens and thrown down from there.
wah! so drama sia! but now, if i do get the chance, i really feel like hugging her and thanking her. she helped me see the real world as it is. it was not very pleasant but it sure was effective. and i really believe my whole mindset has change so much now.
so i've decided. i will not have anything related to my love life on my blog anymore. and if i have any issues regarding my love life? well, that's what my friends are for right?
sheesh.. from the looks of it, this turned out to be quite an emo post afterall eh?
*laughs* but don't worry yeah? i'm a very emo-tionally stable guy at the moment.
sorry and thank you skye
..but i doubt you'll ever see this anyways.
