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Saturday, December 19, 2009



rays of sunlight piercing through the dark clouds...

it looked like there was a 'mini party' happening behind the clouds and the search lights from the 'party' were all shining into the sky. it was really a beautiful scene. too bad my camera didn't manage to capture the whole event in its magnificant glory. the sun hiding behind the clouds and its ray just shooting out from behind the clouds and spreading from one end of the sky to the other. nature at its most beautiful.

( kenneth ♥ taking time off to just look at the clouds in the sky.. )

felt kinda guilty today. was at mcdonalds with my frisbee mates and i ordered a mega mcspicy meal. i can't really remember whether it was i who said the wrong thing or the staff who took the wrong order. (i bet this has happened to most of us before, where we intend to say one thing but something else comes out from our mouth.) when i got back to my table, i realised that they had given me a big mac instead of a mcspicy. for your info, a mcspicy cost more than a big mac. i felt a little shortchanged as i was given a big mac when i paid for a mcspicy. i took the burger and receipt and went back to the counter. i gave them the burger and told them that they had made a mistake. they apologised and proceeded to change my burger. i looked at my receipt again and that was when i realised.

they had in fact charged me for a big mac instead of a mcspicy as i had all along thought. so in other words, by changing my order, i paid for a big mac but was getting a mcspicy. so instead of paying too much, i was now paying lesser. they did not give me the wrong order. they had taken the wrong order. upon realising this, i quickly offered to pay the difference. but the staff just smiled and said it was alright. eventhough i insisted a few times, he refused to accept. i felt quite bad but there was nothing more i could do. i could not possibly put the change there and run away right?

till now i do not really know who was the one who made the error. but how the staff handled the whole issue was top-notch. as i write this, i think back on the day when my friends and i were talking about the customer service in Singapore. had a bad experience in astons the other day. they made us wait eventhough there were tables available and they even served people who arrived after us their food first. and not once did the senior staff apologise to us.

fastfood restaurants like mcdonalds and kfc. if they were to get your orders wrong, they would always apologise and change them for you. and the guys working there are only paid how much? 3$, 4$? sometimes, i think the service these 3,4$ guys provide are far more superior than the service some top restaurants provide. why should i be paying for GST when the staff don't even smile at me? i would rather give it to these 3,4$ guys..

Friday, December 18, 2009

had lunch with a few of my female friends today. nothing against them and love them lots but when they start talking about korean boybands, oh my god. they can go on and on about how cute the boys are. yes. my friends totally freak out when random korean guys' names are mentioned. and all this while, i'm like "o...k. someone please save me. please let a random friend just suddenly appear and save me from the kimchi groupie." but somehow no one ever appears. and i'm stuck there with the kimchi girls. and i just love it when they look at me and say: "kenneth, why you so quiet? i thought you usually talk a lot?" hmmm... maybe i'm quiet because i don't really have much to say about cute korean guys? thankfully, i had with me a friend that is 'don't worry. i'm not as into k-pop as them'. she's the one that really kept my sanity in place. thank god for her.

(ps. you girls are really very lovely people. but not so much when you go into hyper kimchi-mode. hope you don't get offended if you do happen to see this. we can still be friends!)

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ok. let's talk serious..

we live in a scary world.

was just talking with rach today about friends and trust issues. to me, i personally believe that you should never give your 100% trust to anyone. not even to your other halves or best friends. because, i know it's not very nice to be hearing this but, human are all hypocrites. it's just to what extend this hypocrisy lies in each and everyone of us. the thing with people that scares us the most is that we will never know what that someone is thinking.

the person who always treats you like trash and push you around may in fact be secretly in love with you.

the boyfriend who is looking in your eyes and saying how much he loves you may be thinking about his weekend plans with his new hot female co-worker.

the innocent, nerdy girl who says she has a small crush on you may in fact have a whole cupboard full of your photos all over.

we really never know what the other person is thinking. and sometimes, the person may smile at you straight in the face but in their mind, evil intentions are slowly forming. i know of people who in person are cheerful and always very sociable with everyone, but on their blogs, the entries are all full of hate and despair. which makes one really wonder, just which exactly is the real you?

and i'm no angel myself. i can dislike this person but still proceed to talk nicely with him/her. does that make me any more of a hypocrite? i believe this happens to most of us. the whole group dislikes this particular member for some particular reason, but somehow, that person is always together with the group. why? because it would be heartless to just leave out this person. so it would be heartless to leave this person out, but it's alright to keep talking bad about this person behind their back?

i just don't get it..

Friday, December 11, 2009

( kenneth ♥ all things nostalgic.. )

last night was even better than i could ever imagine. went to zouk with the army guys. at first i thought it was going to be another boring clubbing outing until i actually met up with the guys. meeting up with people who you have not seen for quite some time was really amazing. chatting and just seeing each other again, wonderful. i knew meeting up with old friends is a wonderful feeling, but didn't expect it to be THIS great.

a special shout-out to my dugong buddy, J-miah. if you're reading this, just want to say that i love you man.

no. you don't get it.

i really love you man..

like, really REALLY love you man..

HAHAHAHA! totally new urban male gayness personified! joking man. i do love you but not the "banana lover"-kind of loving. it's always good to see you man. never a dull moment with you around.

had a blast in the club with the guys. mambo music blaring and stupid hand actions all capped off an amazing evening. and to add on to the already awesome evening, there was this girl that i was attracted to. kenneth has a soft spot for sweet-looking girls. and no, it wasn't some random girl in the club. she happened to be a friend of a friend of my friend. we were dancing (well, it was more like i was dancing and she was just standing there), when suddenly this group of guys started getting close to her and introducing themselves to her. and that was when she turned to me and said:

"can you act as my boyfriend..?"

cue glaring eyes and protective-ness aura. haha. of course i was more than obliged to agree to her oh-so-minute request. but that 1-2 mins of temporary attachment was as close as i got to her cause we did not really talk much throughout the night. it's kinda hard to start a conversation with

(a) someone in a club with all the music blaring.
(b) a shy, quiet and sweet girl.
(c) someone who you do not know very well. actually it's more of someone who you do not know at all.

in the end, we parted ways without even me having the chance to say goodbye. but if you know me well enough, you will know that i can be very resourceful when the situation arises (aka. stalker-mode activated). but please do not get me wrong, i am not the kind of person who will follow the girl wherever she goes and send her random gifts without leaving my name. no no. i am not that extreme. all i did was go onto facebook to look her up. (do not tsk tsk me. i know a lot of you also do the same!) and guess what i found out? she's attached.

cue sad music in background and sound of glass breaking.

oh ya, and to add insult to injury, she said that it was not as fun hanging out with us as it was with her other friends. ouch.

cue colors of the surroundings all fading and sad violin music in the background.

that really sucks. haha. but i really do think i'm being overly emotional over someone i just met. oh well, life goes on..

Saturday, December 05, 2009

went zouk last night. had a really good time over there. it really has been a while since i last went clubbing, the last being sometime in august if my memory serves me right. anyways, today's post is not about clubbing. shall be mentioning about two particular events that really caught my attention. actually it's not really two events; it's more like two people.

the two being the female partners of my 2 friends.

lets go off topic for a moment..

a wise lady used to tell me: it's hard to find a partner cause most of us do not know what we are looking for in a partner. when we first start off in the whole BGR field, we all expect two things: good looks and nice personality. we have this idealistic vision of the perfect partner. but as we grow older, we soon learn that there's no such thing as a perfect partner. so as time goes by, we meet different types of people and slowly, we learn to be more specific in what we look for in a partner. wise lady also tell me: if you do not know what you want in a partner, the next best thing is to know what you do not want in a partner.

now back to topic..

about my two friends. their girlfriends are really opposite in terms of personality. when i first met girlfriend number 1 (let's call her Sunrise), she was very sociable. we talked like we had been friends for ages. we could talk and joke about random stuff. it was really like i known Sunrise my whole life. even one of our mutual friend thought that Sunrise and I were long-time friends.

and then there's girlfriend number 2 (let's call her Windy). the first time i saw her was when my friend introduced her to me. all she could come up with was a weak smile. after which, there was no more eye contact. no hello, no form of interaction, no form of acknowledgement. woah, i thought to myself. oh well, maybe she's just shy. but throughout the evening, when my group of friends went to hang out with that friend of mine, Windy would just ignore us and continue doing her thing. it was as if we weren't even there. and even in the end, when we took our leave and said goodbye to that friend of ours, Windy could not even bring herself to smile, wave or even say a simple goodbye back to us as well. i was really taken aback by that.

2 girlfriends. same level of closeness between them and me. but two totally different personalities.

which really made me think. if i do get a girlfriend in the future, i really hope she can be comfortable around my friends. it would be great if she could get along with them and not be as cold as Windy. it's alright if my girlfriend didn't really talk much with my friends cause i understand that it's hard to have a conversation when there's no mutual topics to talk about. but a little smile or acknowledgement would be good enough for me. with me, it's always about the little things..

Friday, December 04, 2009

what is love..?

why do i always fall for the unavailable girls? haha. damn. there are like so many single and available girls out there but i always find myself getting involved with those that are in relationships or have someone in mind. i really don't know why. and why does it always seem like all the potential girls out there are all attached? it's not like i have very high standards or anything. but i really do feel that i get infactuated rather easily.

pleasant-looking + treat me nice = kenneth in "love"

so can you imagine just how many girls i haved "loved" so far? kind of pathetic right? sighz. it's been quite some time since i ever had a real crush that i was willing to give my 100% devotion to. so far, the only 2 girls that really did that were.. if you have been following my blog or if you know me close enough, you should know who they are. never had the habit of mentioning names on my blog. you never know who may be reading it. oh well..

people get into relationship. break. get back together. break. find someone new.

and i just stay single all this time. haha. honestly, that kind of sucks. but i don't want to just find any other girl. i want someone who i can have a conversation with. someone who shares the same interests as me. someone who i can just "click" with.

they say we all have that special someone out there for us. so where is my special someone? it's kind of cool thinking about it right. if there was really such a thing as that special someone for all of us out there, then i really do wonder..

where are you my special other half..

and when are you going to appear in my life..

or..

are you already in my life..?

( my greatest fantasy at the moment is to stand in the rain with my girlfriend. with the rain pouring down on us as we stand there hand in hand and just embracing the moment.. )